I dont know what to do. I cant stop crying and it’s pointless.
I’m alone with my worthless, stupid, pathetic self. No-one’s here to help me. They dont understand. The thoughts that run through my head kill me slowly. When will it stop?

I need you more than ever.

I’ve tried hiding my feelings. I’ve tried for a while. Actually I’ve tried for a long time. The guilt that has buit up inside me and the pain I feel everytime I hear your name, is killing me. I cry myself to sleep because I feel selfish, I want you here with me and not so far away. I miss you like crazy and I think you’re special and different and lovely and amazing and every other possible good word that exists. I know you dont feel the same, you joke around saying you love me but truth is I really do love you. I love you like a brother, a best friend, someone who I could count on. Can I count on you? I thought I could but only time will tell. I feel this intense need to have you here but it only gets stronger when I know you cant be. You probably love someone else and I know it will hurt me when you are with them, but I will hide it, like I always have. When you tell me about her, I am crying because I know it’s another person I cant compete with. Im not pretty, Im not beautiful, Im not skinny, Im not funny, Im not special, Im not amazing, Im not anything. So why do you bother? Are you building my hopes up, starting to make me feel good about myself, just to tear me down even futher? I dont trust myself or others because I know all they tell me are lies. I know, or at least I think I do. Im not so sure anymore. Im confused and I dont know what to do. Will anybody help me?

umm hot or what?

(via filmcrack)

anger does not like joy or life
anger shows up in a violent fight
anger speaks louder than just in words
anger can be in action or just stirs
anger sparks from a painted promise or miscommunication
anger is on my mind in most serious situations
but anger cannot be killed like a man in his seat
anger is everywhere and cannot be beat.

amazing<3

(Source: coooolhandluke)